The Real Deal

We're all cradled by innocence.

True. Aren't we all protected by a comforting layer of love and luxurious things in life?!
Since birth,most of us fortunate ones have been born with a silver spoon.
Even if most you haven't, your parents have gone to the ends of the earth to fulfill all your wishes. 
Even the completely stupid, irrelevant And unnecessary ones.

So!
Have we ever wondered WHY they do all this ?!


Yes!They're our parents.Our Guardian Angels. And in some way,according to the nature's law,it's their responsibility.
We're so protected from the world, that we don't realize anything happening at all.
To all of us,our families are our worlds.
Nothing more, nothing less.
But when some one realllllllllly close to you is snatched away from you,in the most unimaginable way, you start to realize the actual facts of life.
The Real Deal.

I Grew up overnight.
All of us, in our own ways try to hold on to our immaturity.
I realized that our age, is our ticket to behave like immature brats.
You don't see 20+ year olds behaving like they're 15,do you?
Everything has a time,and a certain limit. Oh, and a warranty stamp.
So, growing up, is a very hard thing.
You realize, the world out there is BAD,demeaning,disgusting,shameless,pathetic. 
I'd happily love to add a few more adjectives,but they seem to be just about enough.
We're so busy in OUR world, being so sheltered by our family,that we fail to notice the impurity in this world.
to an extent, parents are right.
But i honestly feel, one should grow up at 18.
Believe me,i challenged god that i would hold on to my immaturity till i was about 20+
And look where i am now?

Like i said ,everything is uncertain.
You never know how harsh this world can be.
You never know what you have until it's taken away.
You don't really know if the grass is greener on the other side.
You don't know what's waiting for you around the corner.
Unpredictable, isn't it?

Life hits you hard. Real hard. That's the real deal.
I don't know what you can do about it, cuz i'm still realizing and learning.
"Life is hard. But you can either learn from it, or wait for it to teach you."

So don't wait for it to teach you. 
Become strong. And don't let petty issues ruin your life.
There's so much more.
Keep your head up high & Face life.
Blessed be xx.

 

A Tribute To My Daddykins !

"You were born of dust,
And ended that way.
You left too soon,
 I'd always have that to say."


Father. A word most of us get emotional about. A very important part of our lives are our parents.
In the speedy pace of life,we often look at our parents as immortal beings. Like they're meant to be with us forever.
But it only takes a small,silent,and deep,irreversible process for us to realize,they aren't gonna be around that long. You can't feel the smile on your face.

On the 24th of july,2013, my Father,my daddykins, passed away.
A very terrible way of going. And that too,so far away.
He was on a flight to kolkata,and he started sweating. 
It was a symptom of a heart attack.
No one realized, that my father was a diabetic, and his sugar had dropped.
If only,someone knew,and gave him something sweet, i wouldn't be writing this post.
If only.
 He passed away,and all we have left,is his stuff,and his memories.

When your parent passes away, a parent you look up to,for guidance,advice,secrets. You shatter.
When i found out, i brokedown,and said "Why Not Just kill myself. Life isn't worth it anymore"
Everyone is close to a parent. Both of them. But dad left. 
Shock. Pain.Death wish. All that came to my mind.
And silently,over night i turned from a spoilt lil immature pampered brat to a mature young adult.

Life has it's funny ways of making one realize, that nothing comes out of prayer. 
A man who believed in god. A woman who prayed for him,just before she heard about him. A child who prayed for her family whenever she could.
God is unfair, and life is nothing but a cruel game.

Cremating your own father at such a young age,is a task.
Hearing the same sentence from everyone " be strong", becomes just like a song.
Life is sudden, Death uncertain.

Looking at his lifeless body, i held it together, for my mom. 
It's hard being the only child and going through this.
But you learn to accept the fact and you learn to be strong.
Its been three days. It feels like years. Its hard to cope. But strong is the only option.

So,i have nothing left to say. Except that i let go.
And i'd like to say a few words:
I don't know if god exists. But if he does,i want him to know that from now on my dad is my god. He was a very loved man. Loving,caring,kind,gorgeous,handsome,perfect,friendly,supportive, are just a few adjectives to describe him.
I love you papa. You're mine always. You're here, no matter what.
I will take care wherever you left off.
Everyone who knows you,is in a state of shock, cuz this was a big loss.
Pop,Next lifetime,promise,ok ?<3 :')
God bless your soul you courageous man.
 I'm your daughter,i'm strong like you,and i'll always be your princess.
I let you go. Set you free. I love you papa. <3 
Forever and always,to infinity and beyond <3

 

Incredible India....Indeed.

India. A country many people are proud to be a part of.
Our country is known for the rich heritage, the numerous cultures, the various cultural art, the ever so welcoming people, the unique spices..etc.

I don't despise the country. But sometimes,i'm not proud to be a part of this country. No,the country is amazing, and i'm privileged to be born and brought up here,and be a part of it.
But, do we know the things that happen behind this lovely portrait painted by the government?
 This is what happens in our country. The reality.
We live in a society, where if you hang out with too many boys, you're termed as a slut.
If you're a boy and you hang out with many girls, your family is to be blamed for.
If you're an independent woman, you might be a tough shell.
If you're a widow, you can't remarry. 
If you party too much, you've been brought up in a bad house.
If you go do anything wrong, your mother is to blame.
If girls smoke,she's characterless.
If a boy forces a girl to have sex,he's a stud. And the girl is 'easy' to get with.
And till this date, People in villages,or even the urban areas,despise girl children. Especially from the middle class and lower class category.

We call our country incredible despite the fact that the women of this country are demeaned to such a level where they're meant to only sit in 4 walls and cook,clean,take care of kids.

Our country has advanced in so many fields-Art,Law,Science,Economy wise,etc.
And yet,here we are in 2013,where we still disrespect women.
Only the educated people act sensible. And unfortunately, we are an over-populated country, so we can't go to every slum area,or every doorstep & explain to people,that women are so much more than they are treated.

In India,we have very religious people. We forget to see that along side gods,there are also " goddesses ".
I can't say education can help make a big difference. It's always a start though.
And our Government. Useless. 

Don't rely on people. Spread the message. Treat women with respect. Your mother is a woman too. Learn to treat the other women with similar respect.
peace.xx




 

Privilege

"In this fast paced life, we often forget to see.
What i may have, is what you have in your dreams."

Silly.
We often take things for granted. At least i did,till about a week ago!

I always tend to ask my dad for things,and daddy,like the sweetheart that he is,goes right ahead and gets me whatever my heart desires. Anything at all!

So,i never really thought about all that i ask him for. And while packing i realized 'DAMN i have a billion things.'
People call me 'A spoilt brat'. But i prefer the term 'Pampered'.
It isn't a crime. It's actually the best possible feeling. 

Anyway,since my life has always been 'i get whatever i want', i never really stopped to see how many people wish they had what i do.
I mean i take so many things for granted!While someone out there wishes to have something that i don't really value.

Sometimes,when you always get what you want,you don't value it. But if there comes a time,when you have to give it up,you realize how important it is.


There might be a billion and one things that i don't give importance to,but now i do.
Cuz you realize at some point you are really privileged.
REALLY REALLY privileged.
Think about all the people out there. Lower than you,who just dream to have a proper roof above their heads and a proper floor to sleep. They don't seem to have any other demand. Those poor souls have to live with what they have. And here,we sit on our beds and surf the internet,24/7.
 
If you can't help,atleast start cherishing what you have. Be grateful to god,and your parents for everything that you have. Even if you're a spoilt brat,you'll realize it once you think about it.

"Cherish. Love. Be Grateful."
Blessed be xx.
 

Trash Talk!

Clutter, Dirt, Rubbish, Trash!
Our lives are mostly filled with that!

An important phase in life,is cleaning out the trash.
We all have secrets, memories,and alot many other things that keep holding us back.
 
So,i've shifted quite a bit in the past 18 years. 4 cities,3 states till date.
When you start packing your bags,you realize you probably won't be coming back for a very long time. It's true, if you're leaving there's a reason to it.
When i was leaving wellington,i told myself that it would be a new start,a new beginning,a whole new chapter to my story.
But,its been a long time since i've gone back.
When i left bangalore,i wasn't too happy with my decision,but i wanted to try something new. Get some different surroundings in my life, so here i am in pune.
When i shifted,honestly i regretted my decision for about a year. And then things just mellowed down.

I didn't feel that good,cuz i just kept suppressing my feelings.
But today,after about 5 years, i cleared out the clutter.
Clutter necessarily doesn't mean your feelings.
Sometimes things/objects from your past influence your mood.
You find old letters,old clothes,and yes,all this counts as trash.
I recently cleared out my stuff and threw out so much.
And it feels so much better.

Also,i realized why i disliked pune for 3 years. Because of all the trash i was holding on to,i never really gave this world of opportunities a chance. 
Yes, i was wrong. And yes,i have cleared out my trash.
I'm giving this place a chance !

So,have you taken out your trash yet? 

 

Realization Sinks In

"It's all a trap."

Today(18.07.13),i've learnt one of life's most valuable lessons.
At the beginning of summer,it wasn't important for us to do an internship.
I thought "why not! I've got nothing to lose."

So,i went ahead and started working! It was fun - going all sharply dressed,meeting people from different backgrounds,learning alot in the particular field,etc.
But,you know,i lost out on a few things this month. 
My weekdays were booked. My weekends were utilised for selfish reasons.
I lost contact with a few people. And i stopped meeting my friends.
My entire routine went haywire. And my sleeping patterns,whoosh,disappeared. 
I started becoming more of an insomniac.
And today, a month later, i feel pretty good.

"How long has it been since you've felt the smile on your face?"
Its been long since i've felt free. 
Long since i've felt the smile on my face.
Long since i've taken a carefree breath.

So,i realized, while growing up,it sounds really cool that we're working and getting a salary!
Yeah bro,it is infact,pretty cool!
But do we realize, we're gonna do this our ENTIRE lives?!
Do we realize,that this very moment is the only one we have ,that we can enjoy?
Sure,it's nice being treated like an adult,with responsibilities,but do we realize we'll be doing this for the rest of our lives.
We have our entire lives ahead us to be responsible,to get stressed out,to have a fixed routine,to not be able to meet our friends.
Why are we spoiling our teenage years doing all this?
Most of us have like alot of teenage years left. 
I have a year and 6 months,to be precise.
And after today,i really wanna let life be. 
Let life take me where i'm supposed to be. I have no regrets,but i wanna be a carefree child for now.
We don't realize that time keeps moving forward,and we move at a speed where we can't catch up to it.
So go!
Live life! Stop wanting to be all serious and responsible.
Be responsible to an extent,but don't get serious.
For we have the rest of our lives left for all that.
Enjoy xx

 
 
 

Fascination

Fascination.
A word we can all relate to.
We all get fascinated by things,people,places,etc.
One of the main reasons behind this is "appearance".
The appearance of a particular person/thing/place fascinates us,and therefore we like it.

But honestly,is fascination that big of a deal as we portray it to be?
Absolutely NO!

You see,our minds are like professional FIFA players. But instead of football,they play with our hearts.
Our minds link simple things that get exaggerated and influence our feelings.

It isn't anybody's fault. Come to think of it,it's our own fault.
Why do i say that the mind plays with the heart?
This is because often,when we get fascinated by things,with just a look,we think about it.
And during that thinking process,we tend to think of those things as if they were something better than they are.
It's all a figment of our imagination.
Our fascination often takes ideas from our brains.
We all want something,and if we find something similar,we think of it as something that we've been wanting.

It's a phase. It'll pass!
The guy you thought of as perfect,and everything you've ever wanted,isnt.
It's just your mind fooling you.
Stop getting fascinated and leading yourself into a web of your own disaster.

Blossom,Bloom,Wilt,Wither.

"Love is young,

It blossoms, it blooms.

It's like a living flower,

That looks forever new.

It catches your eye from a distant place,

While trying to reach it, you get out of your space.

When it comes close, it looks rather bright,

And you just stand there, without moving sight.

But "Nothing Lasts Forever",

Is what people say.

So does love stay,

Or end the same way?

It's hard to maintain a lovely affair,

As hard it is to organize a fair.

But jokes apart,

Here's the truth:

Life can move on,

But will you?

For oft we hold on to our past,

We keeping on hoping for it to last.

But it may not,

And nor may we.

But one thing i'd like to say before we part,

You were the best part of my heart.

While i wilt, wither and fall,

I promise i gave it my all." 

Give It A Thought!!

Today,i went out with the purpose of only clicking!

I spent about 4 hours out in the open. And yes, i had to get out of my house by 6.30. PAIN.

But,you know when you're determined,you always end up with something good!!

As i wandered away from the cluster of people, i found this truck. 

When you look at it,you see a rusted old truck that has absolutely no purpose.

Well,in a way you're right.

But come to think of it,isn't that what happens to almost every materialistic thing in life?

Think about it! How many things have u loved in the past, and somewhere while growing up, you leave it there,and it slowly withers to its ultimate death.

Yes,i know materialistic things can't die. But what it meant to you once upon a time,may be of no significance to you now. 

So i thought,honestly,"is this how we treat every single thing when it serves us no purpose?"

Does it end up like this? Or worse- in a location that isn't locatable! 

And you know,in a flash of a second, so many things just went through my mind. 

Don't we all take things for granted. If this is a tendency,would we do the same with the people close to us?

Objects have a certain value in our lives,so do people. But sometimes,objects no longer serve their purpose or we're just bored of them. 

We need to change our habits. For we don't wish to treat people this way.

So start cherishing every single thing you have. Be grateful.

For once you develop this habit,it may take over your life,and you'd lose out precious moments with things that could benefit you. 

xx

To Be,Or Not To Be...!

"The inevitable,yet necessary. This ordinary,yet life altering thing called change."

Change. Something, that to most people,isn't important. Well,it should be. 
It's a silent life learning process.
How many of us are afraid of change?
Going away for college to another city,taking up a new job far away,paying your own bills,getting into a steady relationship,changing streams,oh and the worst one of them all- growing up.

Honestly,don't we all think we have everything figured out?Like, where we are,is where our life is supposed to be?
We tend to go into a comfort zone,our lil shell. And we make it so comfortable,that we don't wish to leave.
We don't really think of the possibilities that could be available to us,if we only dared to step out. If only.

Well,Change has a strong relationship with growth.
Hence,when we grow,we change.
It's a natural process,and believe me,no matter how much we try to stop it,it still keeps coming our way.

Here,i say change is sometimes necessary. Eg: You like a boy. And he is non-responsive. Hence,You must leave the scumbag,change your feelings,and move on.(See,it's necessary for your betterment!)

And change is inevitable,when it's time to get serious about your life. Moving out of your comfort zone,and getting to know the real world. The real deal.

Change,is not necessarily likable. But it certainly happens for a reason. It's something that we have no choice,but to deal with. 
It can be positive, or negative. But that depends on your action. Change doesn't always mean that it's an "action". It is a "reaction" of the actions we choose. 
So,keep calm,and be positive about this change. And if it's a decision you have to make,remember: 
"Life always keeps moving forward. Time doesn't turn back,for anyone. Lost time,is a waste. And opportunities don't come knocking on your door everyday."

So what are you waiting for?
Go!Embrace and accept this new change. Look forward to it. And Smile!
After all, a Frog only sticks around his community,whereas a lion moves forward,and always takes chances.

No Where To Run...Or Hide.

"Sometimes we believe that life has to move on. We reminisce the past,and realize good things don't last. But somehow,we silently wish to hold on to the one we once had."


Growing up. We face so many things. Being a teenager is hard.
Living up to expectations, making your family proud, dealing with peer pressure, on going romance, juniors, high school, college, license,alcohol,parties,drugs, etc etc!
BLEH. 
To be very,very honest, the only reason i wanted to grow up,was to get a license and be able to drive a car. Yes, that is all i wanted.
My childhood was awesome. Care free, protected, not forced upon. I actually enjoyed it.
Independence. Once we turn 13, we feel that we own this world. That our existence is the most important to mankind. We become full of ourselves,and we tend to explore.
So, the gap between 'turning into a teenager' & 'turning eighteen', we tend to go through a lot more than we can handle.
Emotions. They take over and you're lost in a world of your own.
5 years,is all it takes,for one to realize that their past was such a pretty place.
And we ask ourselves," WHY  IN GOD'S NAME DID WE WANNA GROW UP??"

Think about it,think about the past five years of your life(no matter how old you are), wouldn't you wanna go back?
5 years can change a person. For even good people,go bad. And surprisingly,bad people,may turn good.

"The past is a good place to visit,but not a good place to stay"
 True. We all reminisce the past. Good,bad,ugly. Every memory that you have,has made you the person you are today.So has every experience. And sometimes if you over think about all these memories,you waste your time trying to think of ways you  could have not made those mistakes.
We all have wasted so much time thinking about the past.
Maybe for different reasons.
I myself admit,that i've wasted time trying to think of what i could have done and what i shouldn't have done.

But honestly, think about it for once. Why do we revisit our past so often and try to stay there?
Indeed,there are memories that comfort us. But, one mustn't forget that we also revisit our failures. 
 They say "failure is a stepping stone to success." But is it,really?
Sometimes, we run BACK to our past, only to run AWAY from our future.
Maybe,there are incidents of failure that influence our decisions of progressing in the future.
Or maybe,we're afraid of repeating the same mistakes,and having to face the same demon called 'disappointment'.

I can't ask/tell/advice anyone to forget their past. Cuz it's a hard and pretty lengthy process.
But,when you make so many mistakes,you come to a point in life,when you're left with no choice but to let go.
So,don't waste too much time over your past. Face your future. Face it with a smile. And when the time is right, joy will follow when you're ready to let go. And believe me, a world of opportunities shall come right at you,with a bang.
Blessed be. xx.

The Things They Say!

"They say life is a journey,Enjoy it.
They say Memories are painful,get rid of it.
They say love is too bitter,Beware of it.
But they forgot to say,don't misjudge it.

They say patience is virtue,learn it.
They say laughter is medicine,do it,
They say hobby is a skill,hone it.
But they forgot to say,don't over do it.

They say things can be harmful,stay away from it.
They say that light is a guide,follow it.
They say prayer leads to god,repeat it.
But they forgot to say don't lose it.

They say a lot of things,these wise old people.
But do we listen,and grasp this sequel.
Of all the words they say,and all the things they do,
And all the chants they chant,repeated anew.

Just because they're wise,doesn't mean it's true.
Trying to avoid things,will do no good to you.
Chances count as experience,
And experience is what counts. 
So don't just sit there,
And try to stick around.
Life is a journey,waiting to be explored.
Pump up the bass,and get this show on the road.

People can say,all they want
But then again,the heart wants,what it wants!
Go be wild,go be free,
Soar high like a bird,
Or swim in the sea.
Paint a picture,for the world is too sweet.
Paint a memory,that you'd love to keep indeed."

Haters,Fakers,Posers,Ravers!

"Admit it. You've faced atleast one of these in your life. And you've been one of these, in some point of your life."

You know what's the world's problem-"passing judgments",but somehow being unable to face them.
Haters. A word we tend to tag people with when they pass nasty comments about us. But are they really haters? 
Stats state that people who say nasty things about us are one of the following : 
#People who want to be like us.
#People who are jobless
#People who like us and think reverse psychology works.

STUPID. Like us? Tell us! Don't be a fucking jerk.
Haters are often fakers. Who are often trying to impress people.
So,Why do people fake who they are to get to know you?
Are you that special?
Maybe,Maybe not.
But Fakers. Yeah,Not good news though. Lying to someone about yourself,just to get with them is plain dumb. At some point of time it feels like the right thing. Believe it or not,these fakers are actual people. And they tend to lose the real themselves whilst pretending to be someone else.
STOP EMULATING OTHERS!And also,STOP TRYING TO BE SOMEONE ELSE WHISLT EMULATING!
Be Yourself! And then see how many people like you for you! You'd actually be surprised to find out,that you're more special then you think you are!!

Posers.You guys sicken me. I don't have anything against you,but why do you POSE!
I mean if you want attention,do something good with your life. I know,in today's world,people look for beauty, exterior beauty. And some people are so 'fan crazy' that they'd do stupid silly stuff to gain followers. Don't be silly man! Be you! Beauty is skin deep. And if you're meant to be famous, you will be.Don't go running behind success and fame,cuz it lasts only for a while. When you grow old,beauty fades away too. But if people love/admire/follow you for the beauty that lies within. Even while growing old,you'd have these people around you. Learn to be confident.


Ravers. I hate these kind of people. Not to be bias and shit,but honestly, i feel ravers are nothing more than a bunch of morons. You deal with them everyday!
EG: OMG! I scored 95% and only got into 5 outta 6 colleges i applied to.
Well,BOO FREAKING HOO!
Do you morons even realize that there are people who are sitting at home crying their eyes out cuz they didn't even get into one. You little twits!
Stop thinking that people will give you importance if you make stupid,silly statements.GET A LIFE.

This doesn't end here. (not blaming the entire male population) But there are boys who only care about the number of admirers they have. Not keeping in mind that out of 10 of them,there might be  one girl who actually gives a damn. While you bastards try to increase your admirer list,remember this -" with each admirer you feel you gain importance. But for each girl you don't give importance to,you gain a hater. "
GET A LIFE,BITCHES!

" Hate and Dislike are two different words. To hate someone, you should have had some ounce of love in the past. Then you actually have a reason to hate them. Dislike on the other hand, is when you barely know a person,but something about them makes you wanna run away, screaming."-P.M

Life ...As We Know It

"Well,This seems nice.... Although this seems better. No wait....UGH!!!!"

Life. Hah. Such a simple four letter word. A mind boggling word. Ugh.
You know, while growing up, we get influenced by people around us. Family,Friends,Celebrities,Etc. We look up to these people as our role models, and in a way, try to become like them.
When we're kids, its easier to follow than to create your own path. 
For instance, you like purple. Therefore, i like purple. And now we are best friends. Child logic.
You become a doctor? i become a doctor too! we be bestiesssss. yayyyy. Adolescent logic.
When we turn 13, we're still unclear of what we wanna become. so we still get influenced.
Sometimes, in life you think you've figured it all out. But how can one think that way?
We're growing up. We get attracted to new things. Heck, even when you turn 18 you're unsure of your future.
Life is so confusing that till yesterday, you had everything about your future,all figured out. And today, you're about to change your mind, cuz you're unsure of it.
What we don't realize in today's world is that, life is passing by. You feel 24 hours are quite alot.
They're not. Infact,they're just a small percentage of your life. 
Most of us, don't put our hearts into what we do. We do stuff cuz we want a secure future. Well, atleast that's what every parent instills into a child's brain. 
But, come to think of it, it's pointless. Why would you wanna live a monotonous life, doing something you dread.
Life, as we know it, is always uncertain. Anything can spring out of anywhere.
So, think about it! Do what you're interested in. Don't think about the success. If you're good at something, pursue it. Success tends to follow those who follow what their hearts desire.
So go! Go do what you want. And don't regret it. Cuz if you go, your sorrow might take over and leave you with a wasted life.
Go follow what your heart desires. And yes,FTW! 
xx

Take A Walk...On The Wild Side!!

"Rash Driver?...Who Me??! You Must Be Mistaken Officer"

 Teenagers! We have that rush,that urge to try new stuff. To experience what it feels like, to do something that you haven't done,ever!

"Adrenaline Rush" is what adults refer this to. Blah!

It's like adults know we're bound to do something wrong. Like end up in a crashed car,or lying somewhere with cocaine all over our faces. SERIOUSLY?!You're Half Wrong.

"Taking chances is something that doesn't ruin life. It counts as an experience. And people do say, that experience counts!!"

So,i popped in these addictive tropical tic-tacs,took my car out,dismissed my driver,and drove all over town.

According to statistics(not really),people behave more "human-like" when their in contact with other humans. So, i had my bestfriend with me in the car. I drove at a very respectable speed. VERY SAFE. After i dropped her off,i realized i needed to rush home. And it was rush hour, [yay *annoyed face*].

Usually, i don't overspeed. or overtake. But TODAY,was not like any Other day!

I drove like a MANIAC!!

YES! I drove like a person who was driving an ambulance.

Believe me,this has been one of the most exciting days of my life.

Not many people know this,but i love driving. When you're passionate about something, you tend to take interest and try to excel in it.

I'm not encouraging [as my father would term this] road rage,But you know, sometimes, its alright to let loose. Give yourself some time off. Plug in your ipod,BLAST that woofer[USE IT LIKE ITS SUPPOSED TO BE USED]. 

Go,DRIVE. Or do something that the law says is awful! Once, just once,ask yourself. "Would I Dare To?" And if you're answer is "HELLLLLL YEAH" ,You're good to go!

[P.S.- Not encouraging murder. Road rage is ok. Drugs to an extent are also ok. But no murder,k?]

xx

Solitude-Gratitude

People often feel,'oh let's go out',' damn I broke up,let's party' or ' hey! I'm depressed lets drink'. Ok. I don't deny that I do this sometimes. But what we don't realize is that somewhere while we're having a good time , we're shunning our feelings. Yeah. I know,people feel that talking about feelings is uncool or makes you a wimp. News flash bro- IT DOESN'T ! 

You say solitude is for people who run away from life. But don't you feel,sometimes you need it ? Don't you ever wanna just break away? Walk away from a busy schedule - studies,work,family,love ! Yes. Solitude has actually proven to make you realize more about yourself. 

Cuz you see,once you're alone, you have  all the time to figure yourself out. Things that you didn't know earlier. I recently discovered that I love writing and photography. And now I'm working towards my interests. 

You know, often we lose ourselves in a crowd-Small,big, or just a bunch of friends. But you don't realize, that when you do,you start losing yourself little by little. It becomes a routine till your just another person who sits behind a desk and gets old and withers. Stop! Just stop. Get up. Go to your happy place ( a mall, the beach, highway). Any place that makes you happy,makes you calm. Makes you smile. Go. Figure yourself out! Ask yourself,' what do I want to do?really. What makes me happy ? ' 

"Solitude isn't just an escape from reality. It's a place where you can go whenever, and not be judged for who you are and who you want to be''- PM 

So, go!  Be alone. Happy solitude to u ^.^

Love blue

Cuz I love this top so much ! And the color ! 

Daddykins

We all look up to our parents. Girls to their dads,& boys to their moms. It's some kind of universal law. 

I'm a daddy's girl. For him,I'd still be the little baby who was crying when she was born. The girl who he taught how to ride a bike,to drive a car, to write cursive. 

What we don't realize is, 'those who are closest to us,make the most painful yet impactful effect on us.' 

So,I recently made a huge mistake that I'm not very proud of. My mom tried talking to me for about 2-3hours. Didn't make a difference. 

The next morning,all it took was dads 3 sentences to make me burst into tears. 

Sometimes,the ones closest to us, can also make or break us;For we are most vulnerable to the ones who know everything about us. 

This morning (5/7/13),as I dropped dad off at the airport,he made a very mean statement regarding my capability.  

I was hurt. I shut my mouth. Looked out of the window,and a tear rolled out. 

You know,when you look up to someone,their opinion about you matters the most. And you won't believe it, as I type this, I have tears in my eyes. 

When you're looked down upon by the world, it might make a slight difference. But,when that one person you look up to, looks down at you with nothing to be proud of;believe me, it's worse than death. 

I don't really know how to tackle it. But I'm doing the best I can. 

Trying to gain the respect of someone you look up to keeps taking longer than u think. But it's worth it. Long. But worth it. 

All you need is some determination and some way of  being able to make them proud. 

My dad may never admit the fact that he's disappointed with the person I've grown up to be. But  I'm trying to become better. 

As simple plan rightly sang,-' cuz we lost it all, nothing lasts forever. I'm sorry in can't be perfect. Now it's just too late. And we can't go back,I'm sorry, I can't be, perfect'. 

Here too, this song is dedicated to a father. 

But yeah. I have faith, I have time. I'm just  going through a growing, tumbling, falling ,rolling, getting up and running phase. 

I'll make it through.