Complexity ?

Being in a relationship isn't as easy as it seems.

You know.initially,i thought being in a relationship was easy stuff.
You know,"I love you,You love me." that kinda story.

Well,i was COMPLETELY,ABSOLUTELY,MOST CERTAINLY A 100% wrong.
It's been about 4 months i've been in a relationship,and to be honest,i'm the only one who seems to be messing up.
And it kills me!

You won't believe it,but i used to think being in a relationship is a piece of cake - easy to dig into.
But what i didn't realize is that relationships are like cakes,yes. But not ready made ones!

You have to make them from scratch. 
You have to go through rough phases! Maybe it'll be sour,or sweet. None the less,you have to bake it yourself,right ?
If you want results,you work towards them.

And in the past few days,i've got this "relationship 101",from a wise person.
My mom. 
You know,i've realized that life through another person's eyes,is completely different.
When you look at life through another person's perspective,you realize so much.

What's more is,when you look at yourself through another person's eyes!
You realize how wrong you are and in how many ways you have or could hurt this person.

I suppose i never really thought my actions would hurt my partner.
But the other day,i did something wrong and i didn't understand why it hurt him so much.
But when i thought about it and looked at it from his perspective.
And i thought to myself,"Oh good lord,I've fucked up real bad."

It's then that i realized that it isn't as easy as it seems. 
And it's gonna take time to work towards it.
But then again.,isn't that love?
Working together,eliminating unwanted things,and finally reaching a sweet sweet outcome?

So yeah, I've learnt the following :
1.Think about how your decisions will affect the other person.
2.How will this affect your future with the other person!
3. YOU NEED TO PAY ATTENTION TO THE OTHER PERSON. YOU'RE NOT THE ONLY PERSON IN THE RELATIONSHIP.
4.Eliminate unwanted people.

That's The relationship 101.
Well,i still have a 97 other things to learn. But this should be a good start,right ?
Go fall in love and perfect your relationships everyone!
Blessed be xx

Them Theories

It's an ancient myth,that humans were actually creatures with 4 legs,4 arms,2 heads!
Lord Zeus,became fearful bout' what might happen,if these creatures were to take over. 
So,he split each into two halves,two separate identities sharing one soul.
And he said,that these 'split humans',were to spend the rest of their lives trying to find their other half,hence 'Soul-Mate'.

To be honest,i never believed in all this. I read about it,and stored it as extra knowledge.
So,many of you,who know me,personally or through my blog,know that i'm only 19.
So,if you think what i'm about to say is completely immature of me,well,to each his own.

Patience. Understanding. Clear observation.
These are the three tools i used to find me my soul-mate.
Haha,i know what you're thinking!
"WHAT! What a big bag of bull","ain't she too young?",and something that i get QUITE often- "Won't last more than a year."

You see,in today's fast paced world,everyone is speeding by life's simple joys!
People are so used to others hooking up one day,and breaking up the other!
Sad,sad circle.

You know,honestly,it's alright if you judge me or say that i'm wrong.
But believe me, Women,guys are still out there. Guys who'll respect you for who you are.
No,Disney isn't wrong for the happy endings they go around putting at the end of each film they produce!
They leave out a few subtle details,yes. But yes,happy endings do exist.
Love does exist.
And age is just a number.

According to society,falling in love at this age is stupid because "OH MY GOD",you're just kids.
Ummm,HELLO! we're kids,yes!
We like each others company,yes!
WE ARE NOT PLANNING ON ELOPING,THANKYOU VERY MUCH!

I think all society needs is a new outlook to everything,cuz honestly,the major reason why we don't fall in love is because we're too busy wondering how our parents would react and how society would react to the situation!

Look,love can be sure or uncertain. But if you're sure and you're giving your 100%,why be scared,ae?
I mean parents are not out to ruin your life. They care!
If you're reading this,and you're dating someone and if you have any ounce of respect for yourself and your parents. Man\Woman up and tell your parents.
Like they say,"If you dare to love,why not tell atleast the relevant people in your life."

Oh,i'd like to end this long post by saying,everybody i hope you're out there,falling in love! 
Be it a mirror,or furniture,a human,an animal,a car!
Anything! Just give your heart a break! Cut it some slack! 
God bless

The Unknown

Uncertainty.
It strikes at any given moment.
Does death knock at your door? Yes. 
Apparently,it's been going around for a very long time,that death always comes,announced.

Now,you can't blame anyone if you choose to deliberately ignore the signs.
And then go right ahead and say,"Oh,death comes unannounced.
Sure it does. You know why?
Cuz you IGNORE IT!

Uncertainty,unfortunately make up most of the unforgettable memories.
How sad,yet true.

 

LIFE. 

Is as fragile and vulnerable like a stem glass.

In all its beauty and glory,it tends to attract people and make an impression on them.

And all of a sudden,it comes to an end.

Then what are you left with?

Nothing. 

You're left with memories. 

Or

You simply

Become a memory.

A new chapter - 19th

Hola!
I'm back! 
My apologies for being so slack and not putting up anything,in what seems like forever!

I had my examinations going on!(bleh)
So,Daybefore yesterday,17th jan,I turned 19.
Yes! As old as that makes me sound.
Quite an amazing day,actually. Started off with tears,cuz i realized,daddy isn't around,and he won't be.
But i'd like to take this opportunity to thank my mom,for being sucha kickass mother. 
For not letting me feel the absence of my father dearest.
She's been so supportive. I understand how weak she is,but when i needed her,she did a better job than anyone ever could.
"It takes a good mother to take care of a child,But it takes a badass mom to be a mom and dad."
This gorgeous lady,i'm glad she's a part of my life. I love her so very much and i thank god every day for letting me keep atleast one of my parents.

My dad used to call my mom "Cheetah."
While growing up,i used to call my mother "Mom,Mommy,Mumma."
But over the years,I started calling her "Sushikins." (No reference to sushi)
But lately,i realized it was getting too old,and i started calling her cheetah.
I know that name brings back a lotta memories,but they're good memories,that make her smile.

Sometimes,when you love someone so much that even for the slightest grin,you'd do anything.
I'm grateful for being her daughter.

Also,my 19th embarks a new beginning. I realized that my 18th had been one heck of a roller coaster ride. 
I had not only been hurt,but i also have hurt,and made a lot of mistakes. 
But over time,i suppose one just learns to deal with circumstances and learn from their mistakes.

Well,I'd also like to thank all the people who wished me and gave me their blessings. Each and everyone counts. Thankyou <3

#2014

"Life has taken meto places,i had never been.
Put me in places i never wanted to be."

  #2013,has finally over.
It actually gives me a sense of relief. 
I have gone through so much,that it's actually hard to imagine that i've made it through it all. 
I started off the year with happiness. Made a mess of it in march. Ruined it even further in june. Almost tried to end life after my father's passing,in july.
Hated every moment there on.Every month,ever since,felt like a challenge.
August - December,i faced an obstacle every 24th. From getting admitted in the hospital,to a car thing,to getting hit by a bike while walking,everything.
It all felt like it was falling apart.

People walk into your life for a reason,and some for a season. 
But i am blessed enough to have people around me,who've helped me get through every obstacle.
And in that process,i even found love. The genuine "I'm there for you,standing by your side" kinda love.

I've matured so much in the past 5 months. I sometimes feel like i can't recognize myself anymore. But there are a few people who keep reminding me,of my roots. 
They help me stay sane.

I could never thank any of them enough,to help me get through my darkest days. 
For being there,and helping me cope with life,after i thought i lost it all.

I'm stronger than i was. Wiser than i was. Mature.
And i can face life.

I cannot thankyou readers enough,either. 
Thankyou for asking me once in a while,why i haven't written something new. 
I love you all dearly,even though i can't picture your faces.

Happy 2014 to one and all. God bless.May mercy be granted upon you. Amen

The Silent Wonders

The beauty of life!

Life in general,seems like a very tedious task. Apparently,to most of this generation.
What is life,according to MANY people?

Life is - You getting a Degree,Getting a Job,Starting a Family And That's it.
How simple does that sound?

But you know what ? People are alive,but not many realize the importance of actually LIVING your life. They feel like they're living,but instead,they're just "existing".

People find it easier,to follow a laid out path rather than creating one.
Yes,Easy but oh-so-boring!

We've been brought up in such a society(anywhere on this planet),where we've been told to "exist" and make a "living" out of it!
Confusing,right? 

All i'm trying to say is,that if you aren't as fortunate to have parents,who are supportive of your dream,it doesn't mean "stop dreaming".
It means,"Go right ahead and ask yourself if your dream is capable of facing the world.".
NEVER,give up on your dream. Your dream is YOU. And YOU,as an individual,are very important.

Coming to the "Silent Wonders".
As you all know, That i've been through quite a bit in these past 5 months.
I've come to learn so much,experienced so much,been on a rollercoaster of emotions. 

To be honest,i gave up on "faith". In mostly everything. But i didn't give up on "hope", (No idea why)
On July 24th,I actually felt like i'd never "FEEL" the smile on my face.

Now,faking a smile,is easy. I kept telling my mom,"I'm gonna fake a smile. Someday,it may turn real."
I kept saying,but i didn't believe it. I guess i kept saying it,so that my mom would atleast try smiling. 
Yes, for 4 months,i faked a smile. I never let anyone feel like i was faking it. It just became a part of my daily routine. 



And now,here i am,5 months later. 
And for the first time,i can actually feel the smile on my face. I see things becoming better for mom and me. 
I see Hope,i see Happiness,i feel that i should get back to having faith in even the tinniest of things.

I have only a few people to thank for this new found happiness in my life. And believe me,if it weren't for them,i wouldn't have risen to where i am today. Thankyou lovies <3

P.s.- Stay Strong, Hold on,Keep Faith,Believe in it all. Don't give up,Stand tall,You never know,until you climb over that wall! 
Let love in <3

That Man.

Have you ever felt your heart sink?
Have you ever,just stood there,staring at someone?
Have you ever frozen in the most unimaginable place?
I have.

For starters,today's a sunday! *YAY*
But i woke up at 7 *sigh*.
I got up and i had to get a few groceries. 
Now,many of you may not know this, but i have this huge convenient store right below my building. So,it pretty much makes my task easier.

Now,i might have spoken earlier about,how many indians are pretty daft.
Today,the limit just crossed the line.

I went hunting for Peanut Butter *Yum much!*
Now,i usually just pick up stuff,pay and leave.
But today,i couldn't locate this,for whatsoever reason.

I asked one of these people,who work at the store,and i got one of the most stupefying response i've EVER heard in my life.
I asked this lady,"hey,Where can i find Peanut Butter?"
She didn't direct me to any aisle. Instead,she responded by saying,"  OH! The butter is right over there. Next to the milk." 
I didn't argue with the lady,cuz i was still shocked. 
I mean,i wanted to laugh so bad,but i was just so shocked! xD

So i made my way through this crowd,still in search of "peanut butter".
And then,i saw someone .
I saw a 6'1 tall( approx.) man,with skinny legs,a round belly,and a lil salt and pepper mustache.
I froze. I just stood there,and breathed very,very slowly. 

There he was. A tall man,who reminded me of my father. SO MANY similar attributes. I'd say about 90% of that man,looked like my dad( although,my dad had a fair complexion.)
I didn't know what to do at that point of time.
My heart was literally sinking. I couldn't move a muscle. And all of a sudden,outta no where,i gasp for air,and i said,"DAD!". 
Thankfully,that man had walked away. But yeah. That's what happened.
I couldn't concentrate any more,on anything. 
I walked out of the store,and it was cold. I just kept walking. I wasn't able to say anything,but i knew,on the inside,all i could say was,"DAD"
Over and over again,like a stuck tape recorder.
And honestly, i didn't know what to do.

I know this post is really long,and i don't even know how it's supposed to help you.
But,i sorta wanted to share this.
I mean,all it takes is one matchstick to light a fire.
P.S-Recovering.