Somewhere while..

Somewhere while watching Disney channel (the awesome times where I used to watch Lizzie McGuire & that's so raven ) , play with street dogs, run on an open field-freely,cuz no one there would stop me,life went by. 

I'm here. Far away from a place called paradise. I'm 18. And I'm living a life where I'm still figuring out stuff. 

It's funny how as a kid(kiddier kid),all u can think of is growing up and becoming standard things like doctors,lawyers and all. Being able to drive cars,do stupid things,boyfriends,alcohol. Blah. Yes,kids are smarter than u think. But u know,someone rightly said-'one doesn't value things unless they're lost.' True. What I'd kill to go back to who I was. Normal school. Friends,raven,stupidity,football,and particularly,no judgements. 

Carefree childhood. Where I used to chase bullies that before I could realize,I became one. People weren't scared that I could stand up to them,they were scared that I could punch the hell outta them. 

And somewhere where I didn't care about what boys thought of me,I hit puberty and became conscious. Shit! That was bad. 

We don't realize that when we do something,that just becomes a memory. Nothing is permanent(maybe tattoo's. you can get them out too nowadays). 

But yeah. Somewhere while having fun,we grow up and try to cling on to our immaturities. I'm 18. And I still behave like a child. Call it silly,or foolish. But I want to hold on to the past. 

And somewhere while I try to hold on,before I know it,I'd become a young woman. Sad and unavoidable part of life.