Take A Walk...On The Wild Side!!

"Rash Driver?...Who Me??! You Must Be Mistaken Officer"

 Teenagers! We have that rush,that urge to try new stuff. To experience what it feels like, to do something that you haven't done,ever!

"Adrenaline Rush" is what adults refer this to. Blah!

It's like adults know we're bound to do something wrong. Like end up in a crashed car,or lying somewhere with cocaine all over our faces. SERIOUSLY?!You're Half Wrong.

"Taking chances is something that doesn't ruin life. It counts as an experience. And people do say, that experience counts!!"

So,i popped in these addictive tropical tic-tacs,took my car out,dismissed my driver,and drove all over town.

According to statistics(not really),people behave more "human-like" when their in contact with other humans. So, i had my bestfriend with me in the car. I drove at a very respectable speed. VERY SAFE. After i dropped her off,i realized i needed to rush home. And it was rush hour, [yay *annoyed face*].

Usually, i don't overspeed. or overtake. But TODAY,was not like any Other day!

I drove like a MANIAC!!

YES! I drove like a person who was driving an ambulance.

Believe me,this has been one of the most exciting days of my life.

Not many people know this,but i love driving. When you're passionate about something, you tend to take interest and try to excel in it.

I'm not encouraging [as my father would term this] road rage,But you know, sometimes, its alright to let loose. Give yourself some time off. Plug in your ipod,BLAST that woofer[USE IT LIKE ITS SUPPOSED TO BE USED]. 

Go,DRIVE. Or do something that the law says is awful! Once, just once,ask yourself. "Would I Dare To?" And if you're answer is "HELLLLLL YEAH" ,You're good to go!

[P.S.- Not encouraging murder. Road rage is ok. Drugs to an extent are also ok. But no murder,k?]

xx

Solitude-Gratitude

People often feel,'oh let's go out',' damn I broke up,let's party' or ' hey! I'm depressed lets drink'. Ok. I don't deny that I do this sometimes. But what we don't realize is that somewhere while we're having a good time , we're shunning our feelings. Yeah. I know,people feel that talking about feelings is uncool or makes you a wimp. News flash bro- IT DOESN'T ! 

You say solitude is for people who run away from life. But don't you feel,sometimes you need it ? Don't you ever wanna just break away? Walk away from a busy schedule - studies,work,family,love ! Yes. Solitude has actually proven to make you realize more about yourself. 

Cuz you see,once you're alone, you have  all the time to figure yourself out. Things that you didn't know earlier. I recently discovered that I love writing and photography. And now I'm working towards my interests. 

You know, often we lose ourselves in a crowd-Small,big, or just a bunch of friends. But you don't realize, that when you do,you start losing yourself little by little. It becomes a routine till your just another person who sits behind a desk and gets old and withers. Stop! Just stop. Get up. Go to your happy place ( a mall, the beach, highway). Any place that makes you happy,makes you calm. Makes you smile. Go. Figure yourself out! Ask yourself,' what do I want to do?really. What makes me happy ? ' 

"Solitude isn't just an escape from reality. It's a place where you can go whenever, and not be judged for who you are and who you want to be''- PM 

So, go!  Be alone. Happy solitude to u ^.^

Love blue

Cuz I love this top so much ! And the color ! 

Daddykins

We all look up to our parents. Girls to their dads,& boys to their moms. It's some kind of universal law. 

I'm a daddy's girl. For him,I'd still be the little baby who was crying when she was born. The girl who he taught how to ride a bike,to drive a car, to write cursive. 

What we don't realize is, 'those who are closest to us,make the most painful yet impactful effect on us.' 

So,I recently made a huge mistake that I'm not very proud of. My mom tried talking to me for about 2-3hours. Didn't make a difference. 

The next morning,all it took was dads 3 sentences to make me burst into tears. 

Sometimes,the ones closest to us, can also make or break us;For we are most vulnerable to the ones who know everything about us. 

This morning (5/7/13),as I dropped dad off at the airport,he made a very mean statement regarding my capability.  

I was hurt. I shut my mouth. Looked out of the window,and a tear rolled out. 

You know,when you look up to someone,their opinion about you matters the most. And you won't believe it, as I type this, I have tears in my eyes. 

When you're looked down upon by the world, it might make a slight difference. But,when that one person you look up to, looks down at you with nothing to be proud of;believe me, it's worse than death. 

I don't really know how to tackle it. But I'm doing the best I can. 

Trying to gain the respect of someone you look up to keeps taking longer than u think. But it's worth it. Long. But worth it. 

All you need is some determination and some way of  being able to make them proud. 

My dad may never admit the fact that he's disappointed with the person I've grown up to be. But  I'm trying to become better. 

As simple plan rightly sang,-' cuz we lost it all, nothing lasts forever. I'm sorry in can't be perfect. Now it's just too late. And we can't go back,I'm sorry, I can't be, perfect'. 

Here too, this song is dedicated to a father. 

But yeah. I have faith, I have time. I'm just  going through a growing, tumbling, falling ,rolling, getting up and running phase. 

I'll make it through. 

Really now ..?

'As I looked out my window,I saw children playing on the field at school. It's hard to hold on,and even harder to let go.'

You know,being a teenager,you deal with a big bag of mysterious things. 

A hard part of it, is holding on. But what we don't realize is,letting go is also as bad.

We all go through the phase where we have crushes. You know,approach the person,lie to impress,blah blah. You do everything that's possible in your hands ,to make that person stay. You even bare the shit you're put through. It's sad when u look back! But eventually u reach a stage where you realize you have to let go. 

Let go. You're killing a part of yourself by holding on. 

Often we fancy dreams. We wish if time could turn back. Do u realize,you're wasting time wishing for it to come back ? 

Dude! Open your eyes. You can't go back. You're stuck. The clock just keeps moving forward. You can't stop. 

You can't weep. You can't do nothing. But you've gotta let go. 

Holding on to a painful memory uses up a lot of storage place in your memory. Stop! Just stop. 

Let go. Open yourself to you. Go explore. Forget the world. And just let go. 

Somewhere while..

Somewhere while watching Disney channel (the awesome times where I used to watch Lizzie McGuire & that's so raven ) , play with street dogs, run on an open field-freely,cuz no one there would stop me,life went by. 

I'm here. Far away from a place called paradise. I'm 18. And I'm living a life where I'm still figuring out stuff. 

It's funny how as a kid(kiddier kid),all u can think of is growing up and becoming standard things like doctors,lawyers and all. Being able to drive cars,do stupid things,boyfriends,alcohol. Blah. Yes,kids are smarter than u think. But u know,someone rightly said-'one doesn't value things unless they're lost.' True. What I'd kill to go back to who I was. Normal school. Friends,raven,stupidity,football,and particularly,no judgements. 

Carefree childhood. Where I used to chase bullies that before I could realize,I became one. People weren't scared that I could stand up to them,they were scared that I could punch the hell outta them. 

And somewhere where I didn't care about what boys thought of me,I hit puberty and became conscious. Shit! That was bad. 

We don't realize that when we do something,that just becomes a memory. Nothing is permanent(maybe tattoo's. you can get them out too nowadays). 

But yeah. Somewhere while having fun,we grow up and try to cling on to our immaturities. I'm 18. And I still behave like a child. Call it silly,or foolish. But I want to hold on to the past. 

And somewhere while I try to hold on,before I know it,I'd become a young woman. Sad and unavoidable part of life. 

Closure at last. 1/7/13

Hi. I know most of you think closure is just a big bag of bull. Well. I thought so too! Until the 1st of July. 

Roughly About a year back,I didn't get into the college I wanted. 

Naturally,as human tendency, I used to underestimate people(they're actually worth that opinion). But yeah. Fact was,they got in and I didn't. 

You have no idea what I went through in these 12 months.

I kept beating myself up about it. I kept avoiding new things in life out of the fear of fucking it up. I lost confidence. I cried. And might I say it,I lost myself. It's only when a man keeps going into depression,that he realizes that depression is infant,boring! 

I got tired of being depressed. I diverted myself. Became better In my academics, started new hobbies.

But I met someone from my past. Who revealed as to why I didn't get in. A simple stupid reason, that people in the other classes were able to cheat, and I wasn't. 

Eventually,they scored better because of google. I scored lesser Cuz my brain isn't google. 

Closure. Something silly. The word is funny come to think of it. 

But yes. It's that amazing feeling when you let go after you realize,it's not your fault ! 

Stop harming yourself. Stop thinking too much. Stop analyzing. Sometimes,all it takes to feel better,is to let go.